The hardest year of my life: 2016 Reflection

Like most people, 2016 was a hard year for me. I was stressed and overwhelmed to the max (mainly because of the pressure I put on myself and the extra stuff I added to my own schedule). Most importantly, I lost my daddy. This man was my hero. Although he wasn’t my biological father, he’s been my daddy since I was 7 or so (more on this in another blog…). My daddy fought stage 4-pancreatic cancer for several years. He fought like a champ. He would go to work, which was nearly two hours away from our house, and work the best he could. Did I mention he was taking chemo treatments at this time? Although he was in pain most of the time, he would always say, “I know that I still have to take care of my family.” You can imagine the heartbreak we all has when he was rushed to the hospital the afternoon of April 30, 2016. I didn’t know that would be his last day with us. My two-year-old nephew saw everything. He saw the fire truck and emergency response team “put grandpa in the red truck”. Losing my daddy caused me the greatest pain I’ve faced in my life because of the legacy he left us. Now, eight months later, I don’t cry about it everyday anymore. I am able to remember him and laugh about the memories we shared. More importantly, I’m able to thank God for the way he raised us as his own. Words cannot express my gratitude. I’m still on a healing journey, but I’m grateful for my circle pouring into me.          

            Additionally, I struggled greatly with anxiety this past year to the point where I thought I was going to die (another post). My schedule was packed because I wanted to prove to myself and others that “I can do it all.” This was definitely a mistake. I WAS SO STRESSED OUT! Many people didn’t know because I put on a brave face. Never again. I learned so many lessons this year, and prayerfully, I will never have a year like it again.

--> Next time, I will post the top six lessons I learned in 2016!

What about you? How was your 2016? Leave me a comment below or email me. I'd love to hear from you!