It has been a while. I decided to take a break from blogging for multiple reasons. Overall, I have truly been in a dry season. I have been though some challenging times these past few months to say the least. I’ve truly been thirsty…I’ve had an unquenchable thirst.
In one of my previous blogs, I’ve admitted that I have anxiety A LOT. Unfortunately, this monster has become a major part of my daily life. Worrying about what the day will bring, about my job performance (which is crazy since I’m Teacher of the Year…), worrying about other people’s opinions, etc. As much as I’ve told my self “it is what it is,” I’ve still allowed anxiety to win. From having to go to the E.R. because of another anxiety attack to not wanting to do things in life I’ve always enjoyed, it has been a crazy few months to say the least.
I’ve watched a few videos and talked to a few trusted friends. Ultimately, I’ve decided that I will CHOOSE LIFE! I choose to live and bring those negative monsters under subjection to the name of Jesus. As a Christian (a true, fruit-bearing Christian…because there’s a difference…but that’s another post, lol), I had to remember where my power comes from!
I was talking to a co-worker and I shared with her how The Holy Spirit dropped this in my spirit:
“I have not called you to be self-sufficient. Nowhere in my Word do I tell you to depend on your own strength. But, I have said many times that you need to depend on ME. I’ve told you to trust in Me...”
Wow. Talk about a slap in the face. I had to realize that I’ve been trying to control my own life. I thought I was in charge of my life’s outcome (another lie from society…but that’s another post). I believed that I could control so many things. When I felt out of control, the anxiety would flare up. I decided (and I still decide on a daily basis) to choose LIFE.
Ultimately, we all have a purpose to fulfill on this earth. The truth is that we are NOT in control of our lives. God has given each of us tasks to complete for His glory. This takes a lot of the pressure off of me to be perfect. His word says “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” (2 Corinthians 12:9). I choose LIFE. I choose to live a GRACE-FILLED life. Knowing where my true inheritance is and Who controls the earth is a breath of fresh air. This truth provides a refreshing treat to that unquenchable thirst that seemed to never go away.
This day and every day, I choose life.